In case you hadn’t noticed,  I’m kinda a control freak.  I like to know exactly what is happening and have a plan of action in place.  I don’t go into meetings (or the weekend) without having already thought through multiple scenario’s and made a plan for each.   I organise what we are eating for dinner each night and where we are going on our next holiday.  I have project plans and to do lists for all my work.  I’ve always thought that controlling everything would help me to relax, because I had things sorted.

But recently I’ve come to acknowledge that perhaps things are far more out of my control than I have realised.  That I have arrived at this place on my journey, not because everything went exactly according to plan ..because as a matter of fact it totally hasn’t…but despite my planning.   All the things that I have done in my life have led me to this moment.  All the jobs, all the experiences, good and bad, have led me to be here today.  And actually,  there is real comfort in that, something very calming, assuring, to know that perhaps I can let go a little bit and things will find a way of working out.

I was working on a presentation last week and someone had mentioned how they loved the serendipity of social media.   And this is so true.  The social world is not controlled.  To work more socially you have to be willing to work more publically without really knowing why,  to be willing to collaborate but be open to with whom,  to follow links and hope they take you somewhere useful.    To those of us with controlling tendencies (what, me?!) , this is a really challenging road to cross.   But when you cross over, when you put it out there,  it is amazing what comes swinging back around.   A reassuring comment from a stranger,  the opportunity from a new buyer,  the new idea you hadn’t thought of until you read that article.

Serendipity.  I wonder what discovery will be next?  I don’t know…but I’m willing to let go and see…